See that lady up there? That's Wanie.

She is by far, the best, most wonderful girlfriend to me.

Yeah, i know. She and i, we rarely sped time with each other.

We rarely chek on each other like how any other girlfriends do.

But above it all, thats why our friendship is unique, one of a kind.

First sight, and so many can tell me she's just like any typical teenager having a time of her life.

Wasting money on fags and booze, and whatever else she can waste it on.

Like she said, life to her is more like a tv drama- the episodes are never ending.

Nevertheless, she always believes that no matter how tough it is, the last episode, is always the Happy Ending.

But that isnt always the case.

The fact that she spends her money on entertainment, on fags and booze, and whatever makes her happy is because she deserves to be happy.

To be spending her teenage life like all other teens would.

At times, I might stop her from doing all that.

Because too much is never good, right?

But i guess, after hearing so much, after knowing so much, I managed to reason it out.

Her life has been a hell of a roller coaster ride, I tell you.

Well, for an 18 year old.

In this life, all she ever truly loved was one guy.

And that guy, has caused so much of her unstable state of mind today.

No, she's not crazy.

She tends to keep too much to herself, thats why in between happy moments, she turns out to be so narrowed down.

When situations come too chaotic, she becomes emotionally unstable inside.

Whenever she rings me up, she probably pretends to be ok.

Never knowing at times, i can hear the trembles in her voice.

And all the time, when I ask if she's crying, she'd say, "hell, why should i be crying..."

This guy she truly loves, is now inside, behind those bars.

And still, in his situation, he never fails to crush her already so tormented heart, everytime he sends her a letter.

Always telling her that they're not for each other, they cant make it.

She's got to move on and such.

All these, he tells her, crushes her heart even more.

And again, those people who never know her situation would say, "If he wants to leave you, let him be lah. He's not something worth dying for what. He's just some ungrateful man, some useless person. And hell, he's behind those bars already."

But the thing many do not know is her two reasons to always hang on and still love him that much - - - - - - - -

Yes, those two innocent babies are what he left her with.

Yes, they(wanie and him), have sinned. But let's not look at it that way.

Atleast, she was responsible enough to keep them, let them see the world, instead of what many other teenagers would do- have it aborted.



the lil family she created

She still stood strong after all these years, after having to go thru so much.

Thats why, i take my hats off her.

Whatever she's feeling inside, only God knows.

I dont know why, but at night, when I think of her, when I think of her kids, it just makes me tear.

Somehow, I feel her, and I cant help it.

I pray the best for her, in all she does.

And since I cant get thru her, I believe she'll read this, sooner or later.

I just want to say,